My First Post

Ok, so I had to come down here to make things lighter, after the melodrama Krishna created, in the last couple of posts. Before I forget, he wants to convey a BIG 'thank-you' to all of you, for your wishes/prayers/calls/messages. They mean a lot to him. He is quite ok now, and well on the road to 'recovery'. But did you guys read his last two posts. Seeing the comments, I gather that you must have. I mean, I like read it recently and was stupefied. After reading, I thought someone was dead. Worse, I thought he was dead !!!
And when I came to know what had actually happened, I was like rolling on the floor, laughing.(Whats that, you people use to convey this, ROTFL ??)
Kids, these days, I tell you. Talk about making a mountain out of a molehill. Yeah right, I know what happened was not very pleasant, but I thought he over-reacted. Especially, after having seen him handle far tougher things, much more strongly. But yes, I know he is a nice guy and thats what I have been trying to convince him.That, ultimately nice things do happen to nice people. I can see that the wounds are healing, but I also see them leaving a few scars.

As I write this, he is interrupting me. Seems that he wants to clarify one more thing. His intention of writing the previous posts was not to make anyone feel guilty/sorry for the turn of events. He is trying to realize that no one (not even he) was responsible for whatever happened.
I see him going back into "Freedom at Midnight", which he started reading today.
Finally, a thank-you from my behalf too, for all your concerns. I am sure, with my support, he should be fine pretty soon.

Oh, if you are still wondering who I am, I am the soul behind that nice guy :-).
(I think, now you get the title behind this post).

PS: In trying to counsel Krishna, I found out something that he might find useful, at times of desperation. Putting it here for his reference.

WHATEVER HAS HAPPENED
IS FOR GOOD
WHATEVER IS HAPPENING
IS GOING ON WELL
WHATEVER WILL HAPPEN
THAT WILL ALSO BE GOOD

WHY YOU ARE REPENTING
FOR WHATEVER YOU HAVE LOST?
HAVE YOU BROUGHT ANYTHING WITH
YOU WHICH YOU HAVE LOST?

HAVE YOU PRODUCED ANY THING
THAT IS DESTROYED?
WHATEVER YOU HAVE GAINED,
YOU OBTAINED FROM HERE
WHATEVER YOU GAVE
YOU HAVE GIVEN HERE

WHATEVER BELONGS TO YOU TODAY
YESTERDAY BELONGED TO SOME ONE.
IT MAY BELONG TO SOMEONE DAY AFTER

“CHANGE IS THE RULE OF NATURE”
- His Namesake

Prayer

Five long years. Yes, for more than five years, I believed in something so strongly. And today, all of it came crashing down. Just like that. I am still trying to find myself, under the debris of my bruised soul, amongst other things. And then, theres none to blame too. Why does life have to make its lessons so hard ? As of now, all I see is darkness around me. A sense of falling into a bottomless pit.
My only lifeline is my faith in god. But no matter how hard I try, I don't seem to get a grip of the rope.I try to pray. Pray for a miracle. That somehow, I hold on to something before things go out of hand. I know, I have a long way to go in life and this is just one of those things. Sadly, there is a lot of difference between knowing something and experiencing it. Suddenly, the past is haunting and the future looks intimidating.And present, you ask, now whats that ?
I always thought I was strong enough to handle this, but then, whats life, if it doesn't give you a shock when you least expect it :).

If you can, please pray for me. Pray that I come back into light, into life, again.

All Along

All along, I thought I was walking on a path strewn with roses.
Today, I realized it was a maze of thorns I was treading on.

All along, I thought the sky was beckoning me.
Today, I realized it was the vacuum underneath, sucking me inside.

All along, I thought it was the silent sea, on my side.
Today, I realized they were the deathly waves threatening to wash me away.

All along, I thought they were the twinkling stars at night.
Today, I realized they were the evil eyes of the satan mocking at my life.

Ah, the illusions, and the pain they bring along...